Something really got under my skin today so I am doing what comes natural….I am writing about it. I have had a day…that day where everything that can trigger you does. Not triggers my mental illness or a mood swing but just normal everyday stuff that would bother people without a mental illness. Like leaving the toilet seat up or putting the toilet paper roll on with it under instead of over. It’s not like people haven’t wasted a lot of time with those debates. Now I complain about something and it is assumed that it is because I am bipolar. Well let me give you some shock and awe; I can react to something just because it pisses me off, gets on my nerves, or in general just bugs the hell out of me and it has NOTHING to do with my mental illness. TRUE STORY. It happens, I have the same reactions to stuff as someone who isn’t living with bipolar disorder. Just because I have a mental illness does NOT, I repeat, DOES NOT mean that everything that leaves my mouth is some symptomatic rant. I can not tell you how often it happens that speaking my mind is blamed on being bipolar. It can’t just be because I am a woman with an opinion or with expectations. It can’t just be because maybe I didn’t get enough sleep or hey…you tried talking to me before I had coffee. If you have EVER been around me then you know I am not nice before coffee. I make no apologizes for that, it is just who I am. It has nothing to do with having bipolar disorder. It has nothing to do with having Borderline Personality Disorder. It has nothing to do with my anxiety either. I just need my morning coffee. I sometimes just need to be alone. And yes, sometimes I am going to call you out on the bullshit stuff that gets on my nerves. Do everyone with a mental illness a favor and give us credit for being able to have what you(public in general) consider a “normal reaction.”

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